Friday, March 14, 2008

Mom's On The Go.

I suspect that all mom's are in a constant state of movement, although I can't help but think that all working mom's maintain daily life at a frenetic pace. Most days, I can feel my heart, beating, beating, beating, faster and faster, with the aim of moving my body, supplying energy to my brain, so that I can finish a task faster than I thought possible in order to move onto the next. This I do in warp, mom-speed. Write and email, call a client, respond to a - change priorities - ask a question in IM - answer the phone - run to a meeting - making calls and answering emails in the cab - and then a sudden hard stop, whether work is completed or not, in order to run home to put on my mom hat.

We are jugglers, running from one meeting or errand to the next to the next.

Time, which used to hold constant meaning to me has morphed into something I am no longer familiar with. Moving faster than I'm used to. Somehow, months slip by and I can't hold on. February? Where did February go?

As a mom on the go, I get frustrated with anyone that can't keep up with my pace. I get especially annoyed with the nameless people on the street and subways that walk slowly. As I get stuck behind a slow walker, I can't help but wonder, 'why are you so slow? What type of leisurely life do you have that you can walk slowly in the subway of all places?'

I imagine one day, I'll return to normal, slowing down to a regular person's pace. I also imagine it's one of the reason's vacations have become so necessary for me. It allows me, for a few precious days, to slow down to a normal person's pace - walking at a leisurely speed, without a care in the world.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Updates to La Blog

Oy, what a crazy year it's been. I'm so busy I never get a chance to write. If I ever do get a moment to write again, this is what I'd like to document:

1. The fact that hayden loves dogs. When he sees a dog, even from the window of our apartment, he goes crazy, yelling, DOG DOG DOG DOG! Naturally, Chris & I thought taking Hayden to the zoo would be the experience of a lifetime for our child. Well, once again, we were surprised- he couldn't care less. He was even unimpressed by a giraffe. Yawn.

2. Our first family trip, with just the three of us. We went to Santa Barbara. Had the best time!

3. Our trip to LA to see family. How Hayden fell in love with his cousin's Max & Sam. It was one of the most special times I've had yet.

4. Work + Parenting: the endless give and take of it all. How I wish I had a stay at home husband + robot to do whatever I say. If only I were a male living in the 50's - I'd have it all!

5. Nanny love. I never expected my nanny to become a part of our family - yet here we are, and how lucky we are for it.